Sometimes, it seems I just don’t fit in. I’m involved in so many things and have friends in so many places that it’s kind of difficult sometimes to find a place to take root and grow. Some places, I’m the leader, other places, I feel like the outsider, even though people there would call me “friend”. There really aren’t too many places I’ve been challenged. Maybe I’m looking with the wrong attitude, maybe I’m completely missing what’s being said, or maybe my body is present but my mind is wandering. Whichever the case, I need something more, something real, something that will burrow deep into my soul and unlock something. I feel like I’m stale, or dry, and I need something to rekindle the embers in my heart, and I just can’t seem to find it. It’s a bit frustrating, but I suppose I’ll figure something out.